Right now I'm having a love/hate relationship with typing this post. I just spent a good 2 hours typing and by mistake ended up erasing the whole piece. Oh well, I will take a deep breath and start over....I will rely on the patience I have developed while riding long distances.
For those of you who are training to do your first century ride, I'm sure you're feeling a little overwhelmed as you look at your training plan and see that in the months ahead you are supposed to start riding longer distances. I remember I felt this way at the end of July last year as I trained for the 2008 Ride to Empower. My love/hate relationship for riding kicks in when I start having to ride for 4 or more hours at a time. This happened to me the other day. I'm a little bit ahead of schedule in following my training plan because I know I will not have as much time to ride in August. So, my goal was to ride 60 miles that day. I decided to ride on the bike path along Lake Michigan. Before I start out on a long bike ride, I try not to think about how far I have to ride or how long it will take. I tell myself that I can turn around at any time and head home. I play these games in my head so I don't get too psyched out by all that awaits me. The problem is I know too much because of having trained for the ride last year. I know how many times I will have to ride up and down the lake front in order to accomplish my goal and how grueling it can be sometimes. To be honest, during my 60 mile ride there were times I definitely wasn't happy about it. I know that hate is a little strong for what I was feeling but there were definitely times my feelings teetered in that direction. However, I happened to have good endurance that day, and the wind was minimal and the day was not too hot so the ride went fairly well. Once I was done, I felt the relief of being done as well as the thrill of having accomplished my goal. It is then that my love of cycling returns.
My purpose in writing today is to encourage those of you who may be feeling apprehensive about the remaining months of training. To be honest, there is a lot of hard work ahead, and there will be times you may feel as if you are losing your mind. For example, the other day while riding I started looking at other people's bike helmets in order to pass the time. I don't like my helmet very much because it has a plastic piece that sticks out of the front of it. It seemed as if most of the other helmets I observed did not have this plastic piece. When I stopped at a restroom, I removed the plastic piece and threw it in the garbage can. When I returned to cycling, the sun seemed too bright to me, and my face felt overly hot. That is when I realized that my plastic piece served a purpose in that it protected me from the sun. So, when I looped back to that restroom during my day of riding, I reached into the garbage can to retrieve my plastic piece and snapped it back onto my helmet. That is what I call "sort of losing my mind". Being on a bike that long and riding back and forth over the same terrain can do that to me. However, notwithstanding these types of mental lapses in reasoning, I know I will persevere and accomplish my goals. I'm also confident that you will have what it takes to both mentally and physically accomplish your goals, whether they are those that you set for yourself weekly, or the ultimate goal of riding in Red Rock Canyon, Nevada. Even though there will be times you' ll have trouble walking because your legs will be stiff from riding, I'm know you'll get right back up on the saddle and continue to ride, ride, and ride!
Other changes that I'm sure you are experiencing are those relating to your physical appearance. Are you looking slimmer yet? All those hours of riding burn calories and as a result I'm eating mostly carbohydrates and am not gaining any weight. Prior to training for this event, I had to steer clear of too many carbohydrates because at my age just breathing in the smell of them seems to put weight on me. In other words, my metabolism is usually non-existent. Now, however, I find myself eating pizza, peanut butter sandwiches,etc. in order to have the strength to ride, as well as the stamina to sustain myself between rides. To be honest, it's fun to be able to eat whatever I want because I know from last year that about 1 month after the big ride my metabolism will go back to its old sluggish pace. So, I do love that I slim down as a result of all this riding but I don't like the fact that I tend to lose a lot of my muscle that I develop from lifting weights over the winter. After my mastectomy, I started to lift weights to give myself a sense of empowerment. One unexpected benefit of lifting weights was that the development of my chest muscles gave the impression that I still had my breast. I noticed last year that around August my chest muscles started to go down, and I found that I had to be careful about wearing certain tops. All the riding leaned me down so much that my beloved chest muscles slimmed down too. I'm not one too worry to much about that kind of stuff so I just ignored the changes. I also knew that once the ride was over I could build up my muscles again. After my 60 mile ride, I can see these changes starting to occur once again. As I said there are things I love about training for this Ride and there are some things I don't like (and sometimes even hate).
So, you will experience a lot of changes over the summer as you continue to train for the big day. You will learn how to sit for longer periods of time on your bicycle, to keep pedaling when your legs feel too tired, to keep moving towards your goal notwithstanding the weather (wind, rain, heat and cold), to keep your mind in the moment even though you know you should be home doing things around the house or at work, to be patient without thinking too much about how many miles you still have to ride, and to take better care of yourself by eating healthier and drinking more water so as to keep up your endurance... and in the end you will grow as a person from this experience... you will learn,among other things, how to dig deep when you would otherwise like to give up, and in the end you will feel pretty darn good about yourself for persevering through it all and ending up at the finish line even if that finish line isn't at the 100 mile mark. You should all be proud of yourself for just taking the chance and becoming involved in this event. All of you should pat yourselves on your backs for making it this far and knowing that you have what it takes to accomplish your goals in the remaining months ahead. When you have those days of riding where the feeling of dislike (or on those really bad days, the feeling of hate) tends to creep into your thoughts, just know that at the end of your ride the feeling of love will come back to you again. Most importantly, don't forget that at the end of all your training when we meet in Red Rock Canyon, Nevada, we will all be able to share our experiences and enjoy each others company. We will share our love of life because as breast cancer survivors we understand how important it is to embrace this concept in our daily lives. The wonderful memories that you will each take home with you will make those difficult times experienced while training seem minimal. My hope is that when all is said and done you will end up saying to yourself "hey, I think I'll do this again next year "...